7.22.2013

7/20/13 (a little 7/21, too)

2 pm feels like grey
only confirmed by overcast gloom 
shouldn't that only exist in june?

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why do i feel hungover
i swear sleep is the same as
getting drunk and dehydrating

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mom made shrimp because i said i missed it
and like every other food i miss
"it's because my body needs it"

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the computer screen sun blinding
corona-cornea
burn

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traffic with ay kay
boche, he pops tight u-turns
muddled sun fading

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i wonder how many people crawl into hospitals
vomiting, pale-faced
their diagnosis: "korean bbq"

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the grove?
the grove. 10 minutes.
"it's like disneyland without the magic"

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"want to go on an adventure?"
"as long as you don't get us killed."
"i think we'll be fine."

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benedict canyon
1909? or was it 1808
rushing back to a broken glass childhood

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"are we going to the playboy mansion?"
"no, but we'll pass britney spears and magic johnson."
he speeds up

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highridge cul-de-sac, around a gate
"we're going into the abyss."
i can only feel spiny chaparral

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up one hill
down that hill
up another: "is there another fucking hill?"

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jacket sauna,
i'm too afraid to let branches
cut cling deter, crawling crawling crawling

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i swear this would be the perfect place for a murder
dark abandoned brush, easy disposal
canyons full of old money wouldn't hear our yells

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i feel like i'm in a brightlightsloudnoises poem
standing on this plateau
angels at my feet

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this is the
night descent into LAX
feeling

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there's no way the air is actually clearer up here but
i swear
breathing is easier

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even up here
we can still hear the eurobeat of a party
down in the canyon, violet flashes

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walking back: 
"does this stuff ever scare you?"
"i've only pussied out once"

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can't find the trail
android flashlight goes to an ad
are you serious right now

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i need hand sanitizer


flying down sunset's curves, 'holiday' comes on
"this was the first album i bought an-" "dude, me too!"
volume to 25, high five


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