9.29.2011


just like freddy.
pure

almost a little creepy. place has barely changed in almost forty years.
real men
growing stack of books on my desk, leftover from a summer where i didn't read enough:

a farewell to arms - hemingway
looking for alaska - green
paper towns - green
catch-22 - heller
magma - gatto
trimalchio - fitzgerald
diary of anne frank - frank
when you are engulfed in flames - sedaris

sometimes i wish i could just spend one entire day a week just with some soft bon iver, a mug of that pungent green tea, and a novel. that crisp, slightly musty, earthy smell of those pages.

my favorite scene

9.04.2011

i've gotten so used too (good at?) vacuuming all my thoughts and feelings and rapture and poignancy inside me to produce some sort of attempt at a professional, level-headed byproduct that i've lost some (most?) of my ability to display it. through word and others. i'm displaying this frustration in word but communication frustrates me sometimes.

to be happily alone is a compromise with loneliness.
this smooth shell has hardened. the cracks in it have too.